Looking forward to some sun!

So, now that we have been home for over a month post-Memphis, much has happened. Nothing really dramatic or crazy, really just life. As soon as we returned the kids were pretty confused as to why we didn't bring their brother home. As soon as we picked them up, I just wanted to hold them and not let them go. There is something so healing about just reading and cuddling with Carter and Graycie.

When they asked where their brother Zion was, our explanation was just that their sibling wasn't ready to come home with us yet. I was cuddling with Carter before bed last week and he asked again why the baby didn't get to come home. I simply told him that when we left, we thought Zion was an orphan. When we got there and everything happened, we found out that he wasn't an orphan and still had a mom who was going to raise him. Carter started to cry, and then so did I. But, shortly after he also asked why he didn't get to play Wii that day and seemed to be quite emotional over that as well, but sometimes even kids just need a good cry.

Children are so sweet. It's hard to figure out what is age specific for them, without shielding them from seemingly difficult truths. I know this experience will shape them and their views and as we all grow as a family.

Many people have asked us if we are still pursuing adoption. Yes. This was devastating, but it isn't the end. There is no other reason, than self-protection, not to pursue it. We have been matched with another birth mother and are excited.

We are so blessed and feel like counting the blessings and thanking the Lord just isn't enough. So, as we wait for the next step, we are certainly not just watching the clock. Life is happening fast and it's great.

Our first year of 'homeschooling' Pre-K is done and we're moving on to kindergarten for Carter. He gets just a little fussy with me every now and again, but overall I am very proud of how he is willing to learn from his mom. Carter is most excited for T-ball and football to start, which is exciting for the whole family.

Graycie will be four this July as well, and she is so excited for a birthday party! She's very interested in dressing herself, multiple times a day and giving her opinion on just about anything. Our family will be gardening with friends and family for the first time ever, so I can't stinking wait for some fresh food! Graycie has staked her claim in the front yard's old flower bed as her personal garden, so this should be fun:)

Thanks for your prayers and love and know that we are so grateful and blessed and looking forward to whatever God will be doing in the days and months to come as He wills.